Just thought I'd let you know...

I am Listening to Christmas Music!!! It is officially that time of the year... I have been waiting for the perfect time. October felt funny, but this is the time. Yes it is perfect. Making plans for the holidays and figuring out what to do for thanksgiving just inspired me...Hey I may even wear my christmas sweater and hat..I am ready IDK about you but I am ready.. Bring on the presents, music, church services, hey even bring on the family....CHRISTMAS HERE I COME!!!!!

I am WEAK...Finally Uploaded my First Secret Camera Footage...

This is the funniest Video... Well at least to me. The stars are Sis. Kendra and Sis. Courtney with supporting actors Bro. Brendan, Bro. Steven, and Bro Vic! This was made after a Sunday night service. They were cooking for us and I planted my computer perfectly to get some footage. It is the funniest thing listening to guys talk about cooking!! Oh and listen to my laugh at the end I am so embarrassed. Kendra listen you can hear our discussion...OMW how funny...Enjoy!

Cool New Hair Style Inspired by my SISSYS

Thanks Sissys, I like my new style...The Flowers add something huh?

I GOT THE LOOK...But is that Enough?

Sunday night I was sitting in church. I was looking around and my eye landed on a new convert. God began to show me things that I never really realized. As young apostolic women we love to try the newest styles on our hair. And being a new convert there is a strong desire to look the part. Though as first the length isn't there, you learn the poofs, buns, curls, twists, knotts, and the the famous pin curl. Your style begins to mimic those that surround you. Your poofs get higher and your tights get brighter. People in church try to give you clothes that cover you (thank God it is really helpful), then you discover thrift stores. So, finally you find yourself saying "I GOT THE LOOK." Well thats all fine and dandy but do you have HIS HEART? Do you desire holiness or are you secretly wishing you could trim your ends? Do you truly believe what the preacher preached or behind closed doors are you wearing make-up (thinking no one will notice)? Or are you just doing it to please those around you? I want to be the first to tell you that the one you need to please is the only Lord God Your Savior. I want you to know just because you look "Apostolic" does not mean you will make it in. Honey, people see right through that... I want you to know that Holiness is a matter of the heart something that you have to get for yourself, something that God gives as a revelation and once you get it you will see that this world has nothing for you.

Heres How I Know...

I wasn't raised in the church..Shocking I know! So, that means I wore pants and I was not modest..AT ALL. In the words of my loving older brother "She dressed like a Hooch." He was right. I had no respect for myself. My tops were always low cut, pants were super tight, and if I wore a skirt it was super short. I didn't know any better I thought all people looked and dressed like that. I thought I was hideous without make-up. You see I have acne and was ashamed, oh and I wanted to bring out my blue eyes. As you can imagine dressing that way brought all types of attention, well all types of bad attention. No one really looked at my for me, they looked a me to see the world painted on my face. Now heres the funny part, I THOUGHT I WAS CHRISTIAN. Yes, dressing like that I went to church. If someone suggested for me to cover up I would say, "don't look." Mind you many factors played into this attitude that I wont be mentioning, but know that I was in pain on the inside. So, when I got saved (for reals LOL) I knew I didn't want to look anything like the world. I wanted to reflect nothing of the old Courtney, but I desired to reflect my Lord. So, I did, I gave my pants away, threw away my make up, started covering my body, and gained respect for myself. I may not have understood why fully at first but my pastor preached it, and obiedience is better than sacrifice so I obeyed....KEY HERE I LISTENED TO MY PASTOR. As I developed a prayer life convictions developed, meaning once I got in touch with God on my own I understood what my pastor was saying. Then I started searching the scripture for reasons why we dress like we do. I desired too, be seperate from the world, dress modestly, and wanted nothing to do with mens apparel.

All it takes is a relationship. The only way to make it is by following His word. And if you want a short answer to the question... ITS NOT ENOUGH..

Hearts <3>

Leaving for Ontario..

Remember when you were a kid, and you knew you were leaving for something super fun the next morning? Or on christmas eve when you would wait up for santa? Well, that still applies to this 21 year women!! Last night I was so excited to leave for Ontario, that I could not sleep. I laid in bed wondering when the time would pass. Finally, at 5:30 I gave up on sleep. Now theres about 30 minutes until Jenn gets here and I am die'N inside. I can't wait for service, seeing my family (including Godmommy and my Niece and Nephews), seeing my friends, and going to Disneyland!! Man oh Man time needs to fly...UH SISSY HERE I COME!!! DOCKSIDERS AND ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Best Injury That EVER Happened!!

For those who know me well (or well enough) know that I am probably the most clumsy person. This story shows that God can use clumsiness to answer prayers!



Two weeks ago while getting out of bed my knee popped and began to swell. Thinking nothing of it I wrapped it and went to work. While working I was in some pain but I knew I needed money so I continued working. To my surprise by the weekend after resting it felt fine. I went to church and to work and then back to church and then back to work. By wednesday at work my knee started to hurt. That night I went shopping with some ladies from church, my knee began to swell. Thursday morning I woke up and could no longer walk and I was in so much pain I couldn't move. At 5:30am I called my mommy saying I was in so much pain. She told me to go to urgent care. Urgent care tells me that I tore my maniscus and need surgery. Naturally, I go home for my mommy to take care of me!



After I get to Tracy I go to the doctor and they order a MRI. So, I'm at my mom's thinking how am I going to sign my payroll. (AHAH I will fax it) My mom's fax is down so she's calls my dad. Now, mind you I am disowned and he wants nothing to do with me. When I arrived at his house I was nervous wondering what was going to happen. I should have known that the Lord had something in the works. He came down the stairs and actually had a conversation with me. And when it was time to leave he gave me a kiss and told me he loves me....GLORY BE TO GOD!! I was amazed but this was so small for the Lord. Monday night after dropping my little brother off my step mom and dad invite me for DINNER. I had such a great time. It was amazing, I was making my dad laugh the way only his daughter can. I just see God putting everything into place for his salvation!!

I've Got To Shout It From The Roof Tops...IM IN LOVE

Its finally here the moment I have been waiting for, I am deeply head over heals in LOVE.. I never thought the day would come and I am excited it is here.. You all have to meet him, he is the most amazing guy i have ever met. He has given me everything i have ever asked for and then some. Girls, he is the type of guy who knows just what to say... He makes me weak in the knews and my heart races when i hear his name!! This is it he is the one i want, sorry i am off the market!!

I met him last year in november, but i had been admiring him from affar for a while. I never thought i was good enough for him, until that night. It was amazing he spoke to me and put a smile on my face that never left. From that moment on i knew he was in my life forever!!!! I never really talked about it because i knew people would say "its too soon, and you are way to young!" but now i don't care what people say, he is the one i want.

The past few months have been hard. I never thought i would make it through but he was there through it all. He was there to listen, to talk, and even confort me. Ladies, this is one man who knows how to listen. My life has changed since he has been there!! I cannot imagine myself without him there. We are a perfect match!!

So, i know you all are wondering who this dream guy is. I know my family is flipping out that i posted this without telling them... Well here it is his name is JESUS. He saved me and made me whole. He kepted me when i thought i was gone..He is the one for me!!