Happy Holy Ghost Birthday to ME!!

Some people believe that miracles were a thing of the past, but I know that they still happen on a daily basis. It was November 23, 2008 I was 19 at the time. It was the first time I had ever walked into an Apostolic church, and it felt completely different from anything that I had ever felt in my life. I didn't know that that service would completely change my life forever. I had been living a life of heartache and pain wondering around without purpose. I had tried everything, said the sinners prayer on a daily basis, and nothing helped me to change. My brother, his girlfriend (now wife), and my best friend and I were all sitting in a pew together. I remember looking around watching people worship and raise their hands. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life. I turned to my brother and said "When can I get baptized?" He looked at me and smiled, "Courtney its worship service now just wait." Everyone had their eyes closed and they were worshipping! I knew if I didn't get baptized in that moment, it may never happen. So, I left the pew and walked down to the altar over to a preacher and said, "Excuse me, if you do not baptize me now, I will leave here the same way I came."  He jumped down from the platform walked me to the back where the baptismal was. I was so excited and nervous all at the same time, but I knew that I needed this. Finally, Kendra and Misha noticed I was not longer with them. Kendra turned to Brendan and said, "Wheres Courtney?" In that moment they opened the curtain to the baptismal, everyone turned and looked. My family and friends saw that I was being baptized in the wonderful name of Jesus. Finally, my sins were remitted and I was washed clean by the blood of the lamb. While worshipping at the altar I was filled with the wonderful gift of the Holy Ghost. I had never felt cleaner nor had I ever felt lighter. After altar call we were walking out of the church and someone turned to me and said, "Courtney your pimples are gone, and your hair is laying perfectly." Now for some of you reading this, that is no big deal but for those of you who knew me then you know that I battled with painful cystic acne and well I have curly hair so enough said there. God showed me that night that nothing is impossible for Him.

As I sit here and write this post my heart is full! Knowing that 4 years ago God changed my life. I will never go back to the life that I had lived. Through all of my heart ache and trials nothing will ever convince me to not live for God. I can't believe its already been 4 years, but yet it feels so much longer.

Room For The Blood...

Funny title I know but there is much meaning behind it. This is a very personal post to me. I am being transparent with all of my readers, so please enjoy...

I went on a mini holy ghost vacation to Ontario. It was much needed because my brain was on overload, ask my sister I started crying for no reason. Well a week before I left I had been feeling to take a step and wear longer skirts. Now mind you my skirts were always two inches below my knee. But I felt lead to do more. Well after a service one night I felt like I could not push it off any longer. So I decided to go on a "Long SKirt Fast" LOL I did it. Too be honest it was hard cause I wear FUN SOCKS in the winter and no one could see them LOL. But I was obedient to the Holy Ghost. Upon my arrival in Ontario we went to church as usual. But Bro. Clark preached a confirmation message to me on Wednesday Night. He spoke on Adam and Eve in the Garden. When the Lord made them clothing. Uh it was so amazing. He opened my eyes. You know how all the pictures of them show them in lil tiny clothes lol, HELLO do you really think God would make His people look all half naked? God doesn't do anything half way. Then he began to say how the animal skins required the blood of the animal to be shed, and how the blood covered them. I wish I had his message to post to you because I am doing it no justice. There was a part where he asked if what we were wearing left room for the blood. Hey if your clothes are tight enough where air cannot flow threw how do you expect the blood to flow through? I never ever want to wear something that is not pleasing to God where His blood cannot cover us. No flesh can glory in His presence, there is too much flesh being shown by a lot of us. I have a new Revelation of modesty!!! It is so important ladies and gentlemen. We are representations of the MOST HIGH, Covered by the Blood of the Lamb. That blood is for our protection, really it is just like the passover. Its crazy I was listening to Whits End and there was something that stuck out to me it said, "Once you step out of the house the blood cannot cover you," Once we step out of Holiness the blood cannot cover us. Think about it, if your skirt is too short or tight are you stepping out of Holiness? Can the blood cover you? I need that blood to cover me....I NEED HOLINESS.