Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas With The Thaler's and Sanchez's

I Would Like To Officially Wish You A Merry Christmas!!
I hope You and All Your Loved Ones Are Blessed
Remember To Enjoy Your Family and FOOD!
Today We Opened our Gifts!! I GOT MY I PHONE...AND BOOTS...AND APRON...
Yes, That is Right I am So Excited.
I Love Being With my family and being able to see What the Lord is doing.
I Have the Best Church and Leadership!!
I thank God for Four Parents, Mommy, Papito, Daddy, and Mama.
I thank God for my Big Brother, Sissy and Lil Bro!!
I Thank God for my Beautiful Niece Karina!!
I Thank God for All My Friends!!
I Thank for my Extended Family The Waage's and The Jones'..
To be honest I am one of the most blessed People in the World!!
Most of All I am So Happy For the Salvation of My Lord And Savior!!!

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Please Do Not Forget The Real Meaning of Christmas....JESUS!! YAY!!!

Friday, December 10, 2010

The Rock Youth Group

Wow, What a powerful move of the Holy Ghost tonight.
Bro. Chris and Bro. Mike spoke and really,
Opened our eyes to what God has for us.
They helped me see that God has his hands stretched wide
Open for us to run into but yes
Some of us are choosing to be lost.
I believe that this year God has something great for our Youth.
The thing is that we must find a way to tap into it.
Coming from the world I see what it does to people,
I have seen many friends turn out way different from how we planned.
The world took them for a loop they never saw.
I pray that our young people see that there is,
nothing there for them.
That we belong to a great church where God has so much.
We have leadership that has given such example,
there is so much love we just have to choose.
Tonight I made a choice, I am staying with the Lord.
Come what may, if you ever think huh wheres Court,
Just remember, IM HERE TO STAY.
This may be so simplistic to some.
But you must look deeper, It takes deep revelation.
Like what Bro. Mike said, Its a relationship you have to work at.
I feel so blessed to serve a God who loves me.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

What I want to do This Winter


So Here Is My Christmas Season Wish List...

1. Go Christmas Caroling (is that how you spell it?)
X Go Ice Skating as much as possible
5. Go to visit B and Sissy3. Go to the SNOW
4. Drink tons of Hot Cocoa
6. Have an Ugly Christmas Sweater Party
7. Go shopping for Presents
8. Have Kids get SAVED at the Christmas Play
X Stay out late
10. Go see all the pretty lights
11. EAT ICE CREAM
12. Hang out at a coffee shop late at night
13. Sleep in
14. Play board games
15. Hang out with all my friends!!

I think this is the Top 15, No order just what came to my head at that moment. I will keep you updated on what I cross off my list!!


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Paper I wrote why I don't watch TV

So many of my friends and family received a text that I got an perfect score on the essay I wrote for english class. I want to remind everyone that I go to Sac State, not a Apostolic College. This is quite the testimony because I was worried my teacher would give me a bad grade...HAHA DEVIL. Anyways I hope you enjoy my paper!!

Thaler, Courtney

English 20

Prof. Hake

15 October 2010

The Stranger We have Welcomed in Our Homes

“How can you not watch television, is it because you don’t have money for cable?” As funny as that quote sounds it is a question that I am asked daily. Once you mention that you haven’t seen a show because you don’t watch TV, you begin to open the door for questions and justification. I am not writing this paper to convince you that you should not watch TV, but to inform you of why I have made this decision to not watch television myself. Before I begin giving reasons I want to set the record straight. I am not Amish, I have enough money to buy one (and pay for cable), and I also do not watch movies. This is a personal conviction; no one forced it upon me. I chose not to allow strangers in my home.

As children our parents drilled into our heads do not open the door to strangers, never get into a strangers car and most commonly never, ever, talk to a stranger. Parents are in a constant struggle to prevent their children from being influenced by a stranger doing something contrary to their beliefs. They want to prevent their children from being hurt by a stranger. But unbeknownst to them they are allowing a stranger into their home. When you allow a television into your home you are allowing strangers to influence your children. It is said that children soak -up everything they here and see, as they are watching television they are learning from people that parent’s do not know. On television whether they are watching a children’s channel or a regular channel they are being exposed to things that their parents do not want them to see. Whatever channel you turn to the media fills their minds with sex, drugs, violence and rebellion. No matter how hard parents try, if their children are watching TV they cannot shelter them from the inappropriate things. When I have children I do not want to expose them to the things that I am trying to shelter them from. I want to protect them from things that they do not need to see or hear as children, if I have chosen for my family to live a lifestyle that is different from what is being supported by the media I will make conscience effort to prevent them from taking that in daily.

“I will not look at anything wicked. I hate those who turn against you, they will not be found near me.” (Psalm 101:3). This scripture was written by David, who had an intense love for God, he choose to live for God. Many times as Christians we chose to take this at only face value without applying it to every aspects. As well, the Bible says that, “Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever.” (1Peter 2:23). Thus, this scripture is telling us that once we commit ourselves to God, we must “… Be ye holy; for I am holy.” (1 Peter 1:16). We, consequently, have duties as being Christians to filter everything that we ‘digest’ in our ‘temples.’ The Bible calls us to mirror our lives and what we do in our lives, after Christ, everything on television is completely contrary to Christ. Many people claim to live by the Bible, but they choose to leave out many different scriptures or choose to interpret it in a way that is pleasing to their own flesh. In order to live a life that is set apart from this world we must not indulge in the things of the world. I feel if I love God I should love the things of God and things that please God. Thus, I chose not to partake in watching the sin that is constantly thrown at us through the television. If we are called out of sin and commanded not to partake in sin, why do people that are Christian enjoy watching people sin on TV?

Though there are many religious reasons of why I do not partake in watching TV, there are many educational and simple reasons. Sadly, enough this stranger that has crept into to our home has begun to take over. Children spend more time in front of the television than they do with their own family. The television has become many parent’s first choice for babysitter and even become a parent in itself. “Therefore children learn moral principles from the television, where by the age of 16 they observe 100,000 violent acts and 33,000 murders.” Many wonder why our society has become violent or the rate of murder is on the rise, well the reason lies in that box American’s have placed in their living room. The health of American children is at risk, the rate of childhood obesity is on the rise and what are doctors saying that one of the main causes is, television. “United States are spending more than 25% of their waking hours in front of the television set.” If we were to factor in eating (which many do in front of the TV), sleep, and going to school, there isn’t much time left to go outside and exercise, especially with the cut in physical education. I know that many do not agree with my stance and quite frankly, think that I over react with not watching any sort of TV. This decision has so many different levels and accompanied by much research, that I must stand by what I feel. Television may have a few good things on it but the underlying affect will constantly be negative. I refuse to allow some stranger to influence my family and I, and what we believe.


Here is the Poem I used for my essay...

Stranger In Our Home

Unknown

A few years after I was born, my Dad met a stranger who was new to our small town. From the beginning, Dad was fascinated with this enchanting newcomer and soon invited him to live with our family. The stranger was quickly accepted and was around from then on.

As I grew up, I never questioned his place in my family. In my young mind, he had a special niche. My parents were complementary instructors: Mom taught me good from evil, and Dad taught me to obey. But the stranger...he was our storyteller. He would keep us spellbound for hours on end with adventures, mysteries and comedies.

If I wanted to know anything about politics, history or science, he always knew the answers about the past, understood the present and even seemed able to predict the future! He took my family to the first major league ball game. He made me laugh, and he made me cry. The stranger never stopped talking, but Dad didn't seem to mind.

Sometimes, Mom would get up quietly while the rest of us were shushing each other to listen to what he had to say, and she would go to the kitchen for peace and quiet. (I wonder now if she ever prayed for the stranger to leave.)

Dad ruled our household with certain moral convictions, but the stranger never felt obligated to honor them. Profanity, for example, was not allowed in our home... not from our friends, any visitors or us. Our longtime visitor, however, got away with four-letter words that burned my ears and made my dad squirm and my mother blush.

My Dad didn't permit the liberal use of alcohol. But the stranger encouraged us to try it on a regular basis. He made cigarettes look cool, cigars manly and pipes distinguished. He talked freely (much too freely) about sex. His comments were sometimes blatant, sometimes suggestive, and generally embarrassing.

I now know that my early concepts about relationships were influenced strongly by the stranger. Time after time, he opposed the values of my parents, yet he was seldom rebuked... and NEVER asked to leave. More than fifty years have passed since the stranger moved in with our family. He has blended right in and is not nearly as fascinating as he was at first. Still, if you could walk into my parents' den today, you would still find him sitting over in his corner, waiting for someone to listen to him talk and watch him draw his pictures. His name?

We just call him, "TV."

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Just thought I'd let you know...

I am Listening to Christmas Music!!! It is officially that time of the year... I have been waiting for the perfect time. October felt funny, but this is the time. Yes it is perfect. Making plans for the holidays and figuring out what to do for thanksgiving just inspired me...Hey I may even wear my christmas sweater and hat..I am ready IDK about you but I am ready.. Bring on the presents, music, church services, hey even bring on the family....CHRISTMAS HERE I COME!!!!!

Friday, November 5, 2010

I am WEAK...Finally Uploaded my First Secret Camera Footage...

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This is the funniest Video... Well at least to me. The stars are Sis. Kendra and Sis. Courtney with supporting actors Bro. Brendan, Bro. Steven, and Bro Vic! This was made after a Sunday night service. They were cooking for us and I planted my computer perfectly to get some footage. It is the funniest thing listening to guys talk about cooking!! Oh and listen to my laugh at the end I am so embarrassed. Kendra listen you can hear our discussion...OMW how funny...Enjoy!

Cool New Hair Style Inspired by my SISSYS




Thanks Sissys, I like my new style...The Flowers add something huh?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

I GOT THE LOOK...But is that Enough?


Sunday night I was sitting in church. I was looking around and my eye landed on a new convert. God began to show me things that I never really realized. As young apostolic women we love to try the newest styles on our hair. And being a new convert there is a strong desire to look the part. Though as first the length isn't there, you learn the poofs, buns, curls, twists, knotts, and the the famous pin curl. Your style begins to mimic those that surround you. Your poofs get higher and your tights get brighter. People in church try to give you clothes that cover you (thank God it is really helpful), then you discover thrift stores. So, finally you find yourself saying "I GOT THE LOOK." Well thats all fine and dandy but do you have HIS HEART? Do you desire holiness or are you secretly wishing you could trim your ends? Do you truly believe what the preacher preached or behind closed doors are you wearing make-up (thinking no one will notice)? Or are you just doing it to please those around you? I want to be the first to tell you that the one you need to please is the only Lord God Your Savior. I want you to know just because you look "Apostolic" does not mean you will make it in. Honey, people see right through that... I want you to know that Holiness is a matter of the heart something that you have to get for yourself, something that God gives as a revelation and once you get it you will see that this world has nothing for you.
Heres How I Know...

I wasn't raised in the church..Shocking I know! So, that means I wore pants and I was not modest..AT ALL. In the words of my loving older brother "She dressed like a Hooch." He was right. I had no respect for myself. My tops were always low cut, pants were super tight, and if I wore a skirt it was super short. I didn't know any better I thought all people looked and dressed like that. I thought I was hideous without make-up. You see I have acne and was ashamed, oh and I wanted to bring out my blue eyes. As you can imagine dressing that way brought all types of attention, well all types of bad attention. No one really looked at my for me, they looked a me to see the world painted on my face. Now heres the funny part, I THOUGHT I WAS CHRISTIAN. Yes, dressing like that I went to church. If someone suggested for me to cover up I would say, "don't look." Mind you many factors played into this attitude that I wont be mentioning, but know that I was in pain on the inside. So, when I got saved (for reals LOL) I knew I didn't want to look anything like the world. I wanted to reflect nothing of the old Courtney, but I desired to reflect my Lord. So, I did, I gave my pants away, threw away my make up, started covering my body, and gained respect for myself. I may not have understood why fully at first but my pastor preached it, and obiedience is better than sacrifice so I obeyed....KEY HERE I LISTENED TO MY PASTOR. As I developed a prayer life convictions developed, meaning once I got in touch with God on my own I understood what my pastor was saying. Then I started searching the scripture for reasons why we dress like we do. I desired too, be seperate from the world, dress modestly, and wanted nothing to do with mens apparel.

All it takes is a relationship. The only way to make it is by following His word. And if you want a short answer to the question... ITS NOT ENOUGH..

Hearts <3>

Friday, August 6, 2010

Leaving for Ontario..

Remember when you were a kid, and you knew you were leaving for something super fun the next morning? Or on christmas eve when you would wait up for santa? Well, that still applies to this 21 year women!! Last night I was so excited to leave for Ontario, that I could not sleep. I laid in bed wondering when the time would pass. Finally, at 5:30 I gave up on sleep. Now theres about 30 minutes until Jenn gets here and I am die'N inside. I can't wait for service, seeing my family (including Godmommy and my Niece and Nephews), seeing my friends, and going to Disneyland!! Man oh Man time needs to fly...UH SISSY HERE I COME!!! DOCKSIDERS AND ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

The Best Injury That EVER Happened!!

For those who know me well (or well enough) know that I am probably the most clumsy person. This story shows that God can use clumsiness to answer prayers!



Two weeks ago while getting out of bed my knee popped and began to swell. Thinking nothing of it I wrapped it and went to work. While working I was in some pain but I knew I needed money so I continued working. To my surprise by the weekend after resting it felt fine. I went to church and to work and then back to church and then back to work. By wednesday at work my knee started to hurt. That night I went shopping with some ladies from church, my knee began to swell. Thursday morning I woke up and could no longer walk and I was in so much pain I couldn't move. At 5:30am I called my mommy saying I was in so much pain. She told me to go to urgent care. Urgent care tells me that I tore my maniscus and need surgery. Naturally, I go home for my mommy to take care of me!



After I get to Tracy I go to the doctor and they order a MRI. So, I'm at my mom's thinking how am I going to sign my payroll. (AHAH I will fax it) My mom's fax is down so she's calls my dad. Now, mind you I am disowned and he wants nothing to do with me. When I arrived at his house I was nervous wondering what was going to happen. I should have known that the Lord had something in the works. He came down the stairs and actually had a conversation with me. And when it was time to leave he gave me a kiss and told me he loves me....GLORY BE TO GOD!! I was amazed but this was so small for the Lord. Monday night after dropping my little brother off my step mom and dad invite me for DINNER. I had such a great time. It was amazing, I was making my dad laugh the way only his daughter can. I just see God putting everything into place for his salvation!!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

I've Got To Shout It From The Roof Tops...IM IN LOVE

Its finally here the moment I have been waiting for, I am deeply head over heals in LOVE.. I never thought the day would come and I am excited it is here.. You all have to meet him, he is the most amazing guy i have ever met. He has given me everything i have ever asked for and then some. Girls, he is the type of guy who knows just what to say... He makes me weak in the knews and my heart races when i hear his name!! This is it he is the one i want, sorry i am off the market!!

I met him last year in november, but i had been admiring him from affar for a while. I never thought i was good enough for him, until that night. It was amazing he spoke to me and put a smile on my face that never left. From that moment on i knew he was in my life forever!!!! I never really talked about it because i knew people would say "its too soon, and you are way to young!" but now i don't care what people say, he is the one i want.

The past few months have been hard. I never thought i would make it through but he was there through it all. He was there to listen, to talk, and even confort me. Ladies, this is one man who knows how to listen. My life has changed since he has been there!! I cannot imagine myself without him there. We are a perfect match!!

So, i know you all are wondering who this dream guy is. I know my family is flipping out that i posted this without telling them... Well here it is his name is JESUS. He saved me and made me whole. He kepted me when i thought i was gone..He is the one for me!!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

SAD...

I FEEL LEFT OUT!!!

Friday, May 28, 2010

What Keeps You?

Tonight at youth our YP really brought some things home! He came out of Genesis 1:27-
"So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them."
Now, you here that scripture and think "oh he is talking holiness" Wrongo Bucko. First, he discussed 3 of the 7 dimensions. He talked about the 1st dimension and related it to "Point A to Point B" then he said the 2nd Dimension is "Back and Forth" and 3rd Dimension "Knowledge." Man, he said the lowest dimension that the Lord wants us to be in is the 3rd Dimension!!
Then he proceeded to ask us what connects to our church and our youth group. Some said family, some said prayers, and some said the feeling they felt. Then he asked what keeps you coming back....HMMM...I thought....Jesus...having nothing to go back too...Then he answered YOU keep you coming back. We have our own will and we can decide not to come back!! WOW, Lord thank you for the free will!! I thank the Lord that I have made the decision to keep coming back!!
So, I leave with this question...WHAT KEEPS YOU?

Monday, May 24, 2010

I Don't Wanna Grow Up..


Remember when you were a Kid? Your life revolved around your parents, your best friend for that week and what you were going to eat. Life was so much easiar. There were no bills to pay or cars to fix all that mattered was that what ever you were doing you were having a blast. I always wanted to be grown up, I was so excited to be able to drive and not have to take a nap. Let me tell its not all what it is cracked up to be LOL. I was excited to fall in love and get married. And now I am completely petrified!!! WHAT IF I MARRY THE WRONG ONE...Man life was easy back in the day. You dated the guy on the playground that ran the fastest or whose mom packed the best snack. Now you have to consider Jobs, Money, Location, Likes, Dislikes, and most importantly is he the will of God. One of my best friends is getting married. Once again I am the maid of honor and once again my brain is spinning. Lord, help me LOL. At this point im stuck in limbo. Stuck between a Rock and a Hardplace wondering which is right and which is wrong. Praying that the Lord shows me. -I just looked at my wall and there is a paper that reads- In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct they paths. -Proverbs 3:6. So, guess that answered alot of things. Whatever the Lords will is let it be done. But, I wont lie I still wish I could be a Kid again!!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

HiiiYAAH DEVIL...Chuck Norris To the Throat!!

Okay, so this post is for my Family. I would like to say that we have been through Hell and High water!! The Devil has been trying to take us out day and night. He has attacked our finances, our bodies, and our family as whole! And let me tell you that we are so sick and tired of it!!

But we have over come everything...Here are a few testamonies.

  1. B and Sissy just got an appartment for an amazing deal.
  2. Mom is only wearing skirt and NO MAKE UP
  3. Sean is Going to a Holiness church!!
  4. Papito is growing in the WORD!!
  5. I am Passing my classes and my case is closing Wednesday.
  6. We are all being used in the work of the Lord.
  7. Misha got the revelation of Holiness.
  8. God is doing Signs and Miracles.
  9. People are getting Saved.
  10. People are getting delivered.
  11. People are getting Healed.
  12. And REVIVAL IS BREAKING OUT!!!

So, just a general announcement. Devil I know you are reading this... You are probably shaking in your boots, probably dumbfounded about what you can do next or what trick you can throw at us... WELL YOU HAVE NOTHING THAT CAN STOP THE LORD!! Therefore, get your grimmy little paws off our loved ones and back up... Cause In Jesus Name you always LOSE!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

The Peace of Knowing That God is in Control...

Have you ever felt like you are going to lose your mind? Like at any moment your head was going to explode? Or that you were going to burst into tears if anyone asked if you were doing okay or if your day was going well? I am so positive that we have all had those moments... I feel like that has been my week. Issue after issue, problem after problem, conflict after conflict, and test after test...

Man, at points I wonder if I am going to make it. How can this all happen in the matter of four days? I guess I was kinda of having those WHY ME MOMENTS. But, to tell you the truth I am so blessed to be trusted to go through these trials.

(In your mind right now you are thinking, she was just complaining and going on about how everything is hitting her at once and now she is saying that she is blessed to be going through this...OKAY THIS CHICK IS CRAZY)

You are completely right my friend. I am absolutely positiving insane about...Jesus. You see i go through these test and trial because the Lord knows that I can endure. He knows that I do not put my trust in man but all of my trust is in Him. PRAISE THE NAME OF THE LORD. Honestly I know that the good Lord is in control of my whole entire life that He has a purpose of every test and trial and the outcome is always perfect. It may not be as i wish, or as i hoped but it is how He intended it to be. God is in control...He is the creator and ruler of all things!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Knight In Shining -BlueSweatShirt.

So, My Teacher told me yesterday that her office mate would be in around two so i could return my book to him. I got out of class early so i headed to the office around one. I decided to camp out until he came. As i was waiting my favorite teacher from last semester was making fun of my for waiting there... I told him this was a serious situation... And that i needed a tent.

One Hour Passed and i was getting upset thinking of all the things i could be doing...EATING. I start to pray "Lord, Please. OKAY if not by two hows two thirty.." Moments later a man approaches he was hooded but i could see part of his face.

He approached the door and Knocked, I say "He isnt there, hes supposed to be here around 2" as he looks at his watch he says "how long have you been waiting?" i say "about an HOUR"
All the sudden he is silent and looks around goes into his wallet and pulls a SWORD..ok may not a SWORD but nontheless a credit card.

He starts trying to pick the lock. I at this point am ignoring him thinkin that his efforts are in vain, so i continue my game of solitare....THEN WALAAAH....The door swings open and his illegal efforts have paid off. I throw in a few sarcastic remarks and he says give me the book ill put it on her desk....With a smile i hand him the book and run home to eat!!!

Little did he know he was the answer to my prayers!!!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

REALizing Your Place!


Its kind of crazy at times. I have noticed that most people say that their goal in life secretly is to fit in. Now whats the point in that? The word of God tells us to seperate ourselves, to be sanctified, and that we live in this world but we are not to be of this world. When I first got in church if you asked me what this meant I would say "We are to have the Holy Ghost and baptised in Jesus Name and thats what seperates us."

But now as I sit and look back on where i was to where i am... I was the world. How can you partake in what the world partakes and be seperate? Praise the Lord I knew the importance in the Apostles Doctorine, but where was the total seperation?



I was but a shadow to every person who did not know baptism. I followed what they did. I cut my hair, wore make-up, desired their fashion and most of all desired their fame. The lust of the world was what i truly desired. I wanted to be different but i was shadow following behind everyone else. Shadows are dangerous. You see though a shadow does not take the whole form it has the reminants of the form. It has the outline and figure though its silent.


In order for us to REALize our place we must first REALize that we can no longer be in the shadow of the world. In order to make a Shadow there must be a light reflecting off of the form. We must desire to be the LIGHT.






The Lord said we are to be a light in the world of darkness. When we take on the world we are covering the light he is trying to create in the world of form and shadow. SO HOW DO WE DO IT? By living a HOLY, Sanctified, and seperate Life from the world that surrounds us. We can no longer desire those things of the world. We have to strive to be different from the things of the world. Please take it from me, You cannot serve two masters. Its impossible to live for God and
still live for the world. I no longer have a desire to be a shadow i desire to be a LIGHT in this dark and dreadful world. I want to stand out. I want to stand for Holiness.


The world tells us that Showing your body is beauty but in closing i will show you Gods Beauty.


REALIZING YOUR PLACE!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Poem To My Brothers..


B-Brendan

R-Respectable

O-Outgoing

T-THALERS

H-Helpers

E-Energetic

R-Retarted

S-Sean

Thursday, April 22, 2010

To The World...




This is Dedicated to My Sissy's....
To those who look at us and think that we are weird because we never cut our hair...
To those who think its strange that we always wear a skirt (Yes even in Rain)...
To all the guys who never appreciated us for the true women of God we are (Don't worry we found some who do)...
To all those who feel its necessary for us to cover our faces with paint inorder for us to be considered beautiful...
To those who dont understand why we serve God rather than drinking or partying...
To those who don't understand why we run, jump and dance during church...
To everyone who does not understand why we live why we do, just listen to what God can do for you...because He has done it for us...
He can heal you from cancer, deliver you from drinking, depression, and so much more. He can be your best friend when all your friend leave you. He can be your father when yours lets you down. He take away all your hurt and all of your pain. He can give you joy (the unspeakable kind). He can save your family. He can Bring you sisters that you always wanted...And most importantly He and only He ( Jesus ) can fill you with the most precious gift...HIS SPIRIT!!
That is why we live the way we do and why we strive for holliness everyday.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Why Today



Sissys,




Why does it seem when you are most tired that people insist on being mean, rude, annoying, iggnorant and everything else that drives you up the wall. I feel like I could just run outside and scream at the top of my lungs. I know that the party was so necessary for my friend and I had an amazing time and God truly blessed me from it. BUT...I wish i would have slept during the process. I am still paying the price of sleep depervation.




For example last night I gave some people a ride to church and they were a witness to how tired I was. Well when I wanted to leave they gave me attitude. Totally hurt my feelings which were super sensitive because I super tired.




Another example I had so much work to do and had no time for rest.




Another example my boss/teacher was ooober rude today. To top the cake she was only mean to me. I am like are you kidding me. She made me cry but only because i am super tired and it just hit me that much harder.




As i am writing this I begin to look at all the great moments. Getting texts from you, praying, meeting a person out of the blue who had a word for me, talking to Little C on the phone, talking to my history teacher and seeing she is a person too, talking on the phone with mom and of course going to church. I realize truly life is about the good moments and not about all the bad. The good stand out so much more than the bad and thats what matters. God is doing such great work and i see that but i know the devil is distracting me by throwing the small stuff in my face. Man the Lord is so good. I look up at the scripture on my wall Psalm 126:3 The Lord hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad. So, i am glad for all the good things He has done in my life. Lets forget all the bad!!!






Love you both!!!

Followers